thinking lately

Update: I started this post back on July 9, 2021, and went back to re-read it.

(7/9/2021) Here’s what I’ve been thinking lately: I’ve been eating way too many carbs! Mostly because we have had too many carbs (cookies, cake, frosting, etc) in the house. Usually I can walk by it and not give in to the temptation. And certainly, if we don’t buy it and don’t keep it in the house, then it’s much easier for me to NOT eat it. And ice cream – lately, for some reason, I’ve had a taste for ice cream. Maybe it’s the summer heat. I’m not sure. But, I have had more ice cream ‘treats’ (small bowls in the evening before bedtime) in the last few weeks than I’ve had in the last 5 years combined.

So, that needs to stop. I know I don’t need the extra carbs. I’m not even hungry. I just want ‘a little something’ which turns out to be 200-500 extra empty calories…

But I think there’s something underneath my extra snacking. It’s some combination of boredom and fear. We are slowly becoming ’empty nesters’ as my daughter is slowly moving more and more of her stuff out and gradually moving in with her boyfriend. Which is OK. There’s no big, logical reason why she shouldn’t. Except that she’s my baby girl. She’s always been here in the house, part of the comings and goings, part of the action. Who also happens to be 21 and graduated college a few months ago.

So, where does that put me? What’s the next chapter or season look like for me?

Back to present, 11/18/2021: That blog post I started back in July is pretty much exactly the same as today! I am still struggling with eating too much sugar, and too many extra treats that I don’t need. And still wondering what the next chapter or season looks like.

Today I have run across Mary Oliver’s famous quote ‘Tell me, what is it you plan to do, with your one wild and precious life?’ TWICE! The first is an article from the Good Trade ‘What if I Never Do Anything Prolific?’ And then second is from a video that focused on Creativity. So what is my intuition telling me about this? Still thinking on this a bit.

From the article on The Good Trade, Henah Velez writes:

“That excerpt from The Summer Day about our “wild and precious life”? It’s a great one, popular for a reason. But we never see the earlier lines, which read: “I do know how to pay attention, how to fall down into the grass, how to kneel in the grass, how to be idle and blessed, how to stroll through the fields which is what I have been doing all day. Tell me, what else should I have done? Doesn’t everything die at last, and too soon?”

Oliver wasn’t telling us to live our biggest, most aspirational lives; she was reminding us to slow down, to see the beauty in the everyday, to be present and observant, and to focus on what’s most worthwhile—because life is fleeting.” 

I so appreciate the context of that quote now! I think it’s pointing us to the ‘now’ and living each day as if it’s the only one. Mary Oliver is telling us to find the Joy and the Beauty in the everyday things, live in the present, and be the best me I can be today.

I may still eat too much sugar today, but I will try to eat less than I did last week, and maybe skip the ice cream. 🙂 I am a somebody, and I’m going to strive to be the best me I can.

And I want to encourage you to be your best too. Make one small choice or take one small step today towards being your best.

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.